They're gone.

Well I guess I'm back to blog again. Failed to blog often. So I'll just do it once in a while. Bet I lost all my readers._. So anyways , a lot has happened while I was gone. Within just 3 months. I lost some friends. It's like the ones I need most are the ones that leaves. Why? I gained a few new one though and even'reunited' w some of my old ones. And what about my relationship? I guess you could say it's okay. We have our ups and downs. Mostly downs for now. This is weird because I'm blogging about us here and god knows who could be reading this. Sometimes , I just wish that I could be better at all these you know. Be a better sister , daughter , friend , best friend , girlfriend. To my dearest boyf , I'm not even sure if you trust me rn. I keep things to myself. And no matter how hard you try to hide it , I know it bothers you. It's hard opening up , it is. Because not every one cares. They're just well , curious. But it gets better. At least that's what they all say and I hope so:) I can't afford to lose anybody else right now and I've got way too much things to worry and think about , because midterms are just around the corner. Look I know it's been 5 months + ?. Don’t get angry and lose patience when I don’t tell you what’s wrong with me. if I don’t want to say it, don’t force me to. Rather, reassure me that you are always there to listen and support me in every way possible. allow me to trust you with my issues. prove to me that you’re worthy of my trust towards you. if I do tell you, and the problem is about something you did, you do everything out of your will to understand my perspective because I was upset for a reason. if I don’t tell you and it’s not about what you did or said, and it’s more of a general problem, cheer me up, get my mind off the stress , and when I'm ready, I will open up to you. have patience and wisdom. Don't rush me okay? The picture above says it all.