Noted. Hey blogger:) I'm back. Lol , I was never gone. It's already the 27th today. I just wish that time could slow down somehow , in some special way. I'm not ready to end 2011 just yet. I'm not ready to go back to school. I'm not ready to stop seeing him as much as I do now which is actually not much too. But of course all my friends and family members have to constantly remind me how near school is. And to be really really honest? I'm not ready at all. Not one bit. LOL. I'm not even sure what am I suppose to do on the first day of school. What do I bring. Where do I go to. What teachers will I have. Who will be in my class. I'm pretty scared and worried. Point is , I'm not freaking prepared . Blargh , stress betul. Kay , I'll rant about life sucking some other time. Goodnight , signing out , bye!
What's happening yo. I haven't been updating much lately , sorry for being lazy mah readurs. I had so much that I wanted to blog about but I forgot so let's just fill this post with whatever I have in my mind okay? okay ! :D Hmm well let's see , the only thing I remember QUITE clearly was how my christmas went. So yeah , On the 23rd in t afternoon my family and I + my bestfriend checked in @ t royal bintang hotel :D we ate and walked around and went for a swim. got our bean boozled from mr freestylez , thank you mr. freestylez. And we camwhored and played w it all night then had supper and went to bed. On the next day we had to wake up super early (well , for us) and changed room -.- after that she's t man was on the tv and I can't fall asleep anymore so I watched it :D Oh and the night before there was this never ending marathon of chalkzone & catdog. It was so annoying my gosh . HAHAHA basically did the same thing as what we did on t 23rd but it was fun-ner I guess? Took really really little pictures but it's okay. There's always next time. Watched a late night movie cause we had nothing to do. Mission impossible was awesome. Like seriously lah , I wanna watch it again. No jokeee. Somebodeh bring meeh? :D But the movie was kinda longer than others I think it was like 2 hours? LOL. Rushed to a toilet after that than we lost my brother. So t 3 of us split ways. But leeann was w me. Struggled to walk from e@curve to the other side of the street market , almost everyone was spraying snow on us. And that shit stinks. But I had fun anyways , so thats pretty much what I did on my christmas eve? For the christmas day itself , I spent it at home , laying on the couch. Redo-ing my nails and watching cds. No regrets:) That's all for now , toooooodles.
Hi readers:) I spend my friday partying & drinking. Loljk , I spent most of my day in the toilet , vomiting. Today i went mint free , so I actually vomited alot. And from what I heard , you're suppose to feel better but I didn't. Everything I vomited was sweet instead of sour. And its covered w phlegm. Pretty gross huh?K , I should just probably shut up right now incase people reading this feel like vomiting. Mmhmm like I said in twitter my bestfriends made me cupcakes today , and they went through all the trouble to bring it to me :') awwwh . am I lucky? or am I just luck? Hahah I'm messing w ya' . Tried some and they tasted so good:) Too bad I vomited like everything I ate after that :S Sorry guise. This thing is getting worse by the way. Hopefully I'll get a PROPER check up. For now fingers crossed cause I don't wanna be spending christmas in a hospital again. Grr.
It's funny how people are so freaking judgemental these days. They can judge you without even hearing both sides of the story. I hate those people and the ones that actually believed them. Yeah , I hate them more. I loathe you entirely. Everyone has a limit. And from what I see she just reached hers. Mum , you're the strongest person I known , ever . Sure , there are people fighting for cancer out there. Kids starving in africa. But in my eyes. I think she's the strongest person I've known. I'm not gonna lie , I've been a rebel. Even now , sometimes. But I guess it just came out of anger. I know I don't really mean it. So I'm not gonna say no anymore. I'm willingly gonna go where ever you want to bring me. I'm gonna do whatever you want me to do. I am paying my dues. As much as you like saying we're going away and never coming back but do nothing about it. I have a strong feeling that this time , you meant what you say. And to my dearest grandma , you've won. We're leaving. We're not just gonna sit here and take your bullshit anymore.
Because I know how this feels like. Today was horrible but at the same time great. Partly because I wasn't feeling entirely well. And well I got to see him which made me happy enough. Woke up at 7:50 , thanks leeann & darien for the wake up calls / text. Started feeling superrrr sick. Snoozed for about 10-15 minutes. Then finally got up and went on twitter. Leeann came over to take care of me. Thanks again:) Showered. When I was done , darien was in my living room already. Walked to ss2 mall , vomited on the way. Met up w mr jordan freestylez. Or god knows what his name is. He made us walk here and there. And I guess he was too 'shy' so he texted us when he can just talk to us-.- WOW . LOL. Too much money to spend la he. Stayed at the side of the road because I wasnt feeling well again. After awhile we walked to his apartment. Wait for him to go change. LOL. Then his dad came pick us up and fetched us to ou:) Bought tickets. Waited for eugene to come. Watched movie. Stare at some girl that is supposingly be a statue. LOLOL She looked freaking gorgeous but people were like laughing at her for some reason-.- HAHA. Wanted to bring him to the secret garden but theres something wrong with the buttons in the lift so we didnt go. But we went to the baseball place instead:) MAH BOI PLAYS LIKE A BAWS (Y) Uh uh . Took so long to decide if we should go to curve or not. Finally went , walked under the rain. Spent more money in curve. LOL. And had dinner then came home. I guess you could say that's almost EVERY detail of how my day went. Will be spamming bout some shiz tmrw. Goodbye & Goodnight:)
Ayeee. Noticed my background is not black anymore? Well I changed it. HAHA. It took me so long to find something that actually matches -.- Gonna leave it like this for awhile. Embrace the girly-ness because I can:D Anyways leeann johnson and darien came over today:) Was supposed to take some kind of 'group photo' but idk what happened. We ended up just rotting instead. Basically talk about ou the whole time. And some dude name jordan. He's fetching us out tmrw I guess. Gonna ask my mum for some money later so wish me luck. That's all ! Thanks for reading.
These are the only words I'm saying in my head. I was having trouble falling asleep last night. Not only that , I was also in a super bad mood due to pms. LOL. So errrrrybody reading this. Don't mess with me on my period. Like seriously. Ask my friends. Haha. Woke up hella early for some reason and I don't know why. But I woke up in a great mood and I didn't really care that my charger wasn't in my room. Usually I'll be all tired and lazy. And usually if my charger is gone , I'll freak and scold people and stuff because I clearly need to charge my phone every morning. Cause it dies when I'm asleep. But I'm kinda hyper today. I got up played some old songs in my spare phone & started dancing. Gosh I missed dancing so much. Anyways the rest of the day was a really boring day. All I did was sit at home and rot and rot and rot. Fight for the charger. Took care of daddy. And mummy made me wait the whole freaking day cause she promised she'll take me out. Ended up going out at 8 , I was so pissed. But I'll talk about that some other time when I'm angry enough to let everything out. Went to curve did some grocery shopping , and that's it. Oh yeah , I also learnt some tutting & C walking today:) The tutting , It's on the right of this blog. Go have a look :D
First of all , fuck you mum:) FUCK YOU. F-U-C-K-Y-O-U. Just because you're in a bad mood and I was the only the person in the living room gives you no right to fucking lecture me. Everything you scold me about is the same thing over and over again. Really mum ? Are you for real now? Just cause you can't find any more reasons to scold me you use the same one over and over again. Well fuck it. I'm sick of everything. I just want out. I wanna be out of this fucking hell. During school days I sleep late you go all "mae, holidays almost here already , on the holidays only sleep late can or not?" I listened. And now you're saying " mae , you're always sleeping late " BITCH WHAT THE FUCK? I quoted what you said and you go speechless and find something else to scold me. In the middle of a argument my friend called and asked if I could go to her competition. Of course I had to , shes my bestfriend. Let me tell you guys what my mum said. " What for? You're doing all these NONSENSE with your friends" Nonsense? NONSENSE? You asked what am I gonna do there. I said SUPPORT. THAT AIN'T NONSENSE NOW , IS IT? HUH? Mum you wanna know the fucking definition of nonsense?! LOOK AT JUSTYNE. OR KOKOH. IDK. That's nonsense. Lazing around the fucking house all day and night. While I a fucking fourteen year old teen look for a fucking job. But of course I can't do much because I'M FUCKING FOURTEEN! Maybe next year. I'll have more choices to choose from. And I'll have a part time whether you like it or not. Okay hmm what else. "Mae , stop being a follower and go find something to do , what happened to cheer?" Mm , mum. You're the one that clearly have no fucking hope in me to join cheer. When I wanted to buy stuff for cheer. You go all " for what? it's not like you finish anything" Do you still think I wanna join after hearing MY OWN MUM say that? No. Obviously not. So I said , you have no hope for me to join. So why should I bother continue. You had no comment once again. Now you bring up the piano and the guitar lessons. Well I'm sorry mum that i have no interest for something you FORCED me to learn. and the guitar lessons ? I'm not even taking them , that's kokoh. So why don't you give me a fucking break and scold him instead? Is it cause I'm the only girl and I HAVE TO be the one that HAS TO be PERFECT in EVERYTHING? Yeah thats right. That's not it , there's still more. "Name something that you didnt give up on mae" DANCING MUM. DANCING, THATS ONE THING I NEVER GAVE UP ON. YOU KNOW WHY I STOPPED? BECAUSE MY TEACHER IS ON A FUCKING TOUR CAUSE HE HAS FUCKING COMPETITIONS ALL AROUND THE WORLD . I just want out. Why can't you listen to me , just once.
I don't have the words to articulate this particular thought at this time. 
Nyehehe. This is a replacement for our webcam kisses cause I'm too shy to do it infront of you. But here you go baby <3 I love you so so much! <3 I bet you have the largest widest most sexiest smile on your face right now , you're welcome boo :) x
Today was just amazing. Walked around. Watched arthurs christmas (the show is a big nono) Cuddled. It was all so perfect. There were sparks when we kissed and everything :') <3 But of course a perfect day had to be ruined. I'm feeling so guilty right now. That his mum and him are arguing , or whatnot. She probably think of me as a slut. A bad influence, I don't know. Gosh.
Yipeeeeeee! I've just reached my 100th post readers. In 3-4 months time. Whoah. Imagine if I continued blogging till next year. Which most probably I won't cause no one reads this shit anyways. All the useless stuff I blogged :O HAHA. I've been mia lately and I had nothing much to blog about so that's that. Anyways , Recently I went out w huihui , jason , bookean , darien & johnson. It was okaay , for me. But idk for the rest off them la. Wanted to rock climb but we didn't have any 'adult supervision' or whatever. After zat. Darien and johnson slept over in my place for 2 days._. Dyed their hair. Jam to songs. Talk about random stuff. The usual. Speaking of that , they should really start leaving spare stuff in my house. LOLOLOL. Oh hell yeah guess vart? I'm gonna see my boo tomorrow :] Like finally after uhh 11 days. Omg. 11 days felt so long. I'll be in his arms tomorrow :> hehehehohoho. Can't waitttttt. Haven't picked out what I'm gonna wear though ._. Super excited. Will blog about it next time I guess?:) Lastly , dear pimples please go away , you're always coming out when I haz a date. Like seriously?-.-
My mum never fails to make me feel like crap all day , everyday. But I guess she just wants the best for me. But how am I supposed to change or do what she wants if she doesn't let me. For example. Example #1 She says I don't help out in the house. The moment I pick up the plate and start to wash it she says nevermind , let the maid do it. So I stop insisting then she says I don't bother helping. Example #2 , you should do something productive instead of staying in the house and using the computer the whole day. Umm excuse me? Were you at home? No. I just on my laptop when you got home. I did not use it for the whole day. Example #3 , Why dont you join some clubs or stuff. so in case you can't get a job you can use your talent. Okay so , I love to sing and dance , I think everyone knows that. Can I go for classes , mum? No. Example #4 , Why can't you be like your cousins? Straight A's all the way. Well , I'm sorry I'm not smart. I'm sorry I couldn't reach your standards. I'm sorry you won't let me go to tuitions. There's way more but I'll just stop here.
So my uncle just left :/ Right after I went downstairs after bathing. I missed the chance to say goodbye to him. I hope we meet again soon. I'm gonna miss you like hell. No more late night suppers w you. No more asking for transport to go here and there. No more teasing me when I have a boyfriend. No more having the person that thinks every guy that I go out with is my boyfriend. No more going to kl. No more introducing games. No more tickle fights or pranks. It all ends here. 5 years you've been here. What would it be like when you leave. Sigh. Actually teared up writing this. I just wanna wish all the best to you , aunty dolly , miley & mhelaine. Take care of my shop till I get back there. Hope the business is good. God bless. Lotsa love , mae.
Mum , what the fuck did I do to make you hate me so bad? Huh? I said I wanna work. So I won't have to be asking money from you all the time. Don't you want that? It's all you ever complain about - money. I only will be working for 2 days so calm your fucking tits. It's not even a 24 hour work. I'll be gone for 5 hours at least. You're always like look at this kids blahblahblah. So young working blahblahblah. Helping their parents blahblahblah. Am I not? Why can't you just fucking hear me out. Ugh. I found my own transport and everything so it would be easier but just because I'm following a guy's car you freaked out. I'll give you every fucking detail you need from him. I told you his name. I'll get his fucking number for you. I can even call him to ask his mum talk to you , whatever makes you satisfied. I'll fucking do it. But no. And when I tell you leeann will be there too , you don't believe me. Since when did I ever lie to you huh? Maybe last year , I did a few times. But I changed, when will you realize that? Never. Done w this.
