Do you ever feel like breaking down and crying ? Letting every single thing that's bothering you out? I have. Ugh what am I saying? I gotta stop being such a emo fuck again. This morning. I had the urge to cut. For some personal reasons. But I'm still trying to stop the urge from cutting. (last time I cut was about 1 year ago , proud of myself that I was willing to stop) I miss how easy life was when we were kids. I miss watching cartoons in my pj's all day long and not worry about anything. Not that we're not now but yeah. It's different.I miss how I was close to both of my parents when we're on vacation. The on vacations part? How to say ah. Because they're always to be busy to have time for us so yeah. I feel so weak now a days too. Like physically. No idea what's up with me. I should stop doing alot of things not only stop being a emo fuck but also stop going online for way too long and just fucking stare at the screen. Sleeping at 7 every night and waking up late in the afternoon. Having just ONE meal in one day. That's not how I'm gonna be spending my whole holiday but it already seem like it now. Thinking should I continue to go cheer or not. Decisions , decisions. It's like cheer is the only way to help me bond with my bestfriends again. And that alone means alot to me. Other than that , I have something to do during this boring holiday.
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